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After thinking about it and receiving more negative comments from some of the same bad actors, as I struggled to find “forgiveness in my heart” for these abusive individuals, I have come to realize that “forgiveness” is wasted on some and is no antidote to their irrational cruelty. I must find another way to deal with them.
Do we forgive Hitler or Mussolini or any other of the dangerous crackpots that have ruled the world? Yet these same type of irrational personalities, in diminutive form, rule the internet in their own little fiefdoms, and they rule and punish “with an iron hand.” Just as a poisonous toad “rules” it’s hole in the mud, or a poisonous snake “rules” in it’s den.
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Ye serpents, ye generation of vipers, how can ye escape the damnation of hell? … “Snakes! Brood of vipers! How can you escape being condemned to hell?
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Will I continue to attempt to “forgive them?” The answer is NO. Forgiveness is wasted on some. Forgiveness is God’s job and I put they and their problems “into the Hands of God,” which is where this belongs.
I have no control over them, their ways, their thinking, actions or anything else. It’s over for me. I will continue to speak my truth no matter how they might try to harass me, as others need to be warned and protected if they are assaulted in the same way.
I will ask forgiveness for “my part in this” by even questioning anything on their site (I didn’t recognize how seriously sick this forum was) and leave it at that. I will stay away from disordered individuals and their forums and their websites as there is little to nothing to be gained there, except how to blame others for the problems that people create for themselves. God help the children of those disordered individuals. How they managed to survive that kind of childhood is a miracle to me.
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The one (Silver Lining) in all of this is my finally realizing that NOTHING any of us do will change the mindset, behavior or beliefs of these kind of mentally disordered individuals.
NOTHING can “change their mind” as they see the whole world as either “for” or “against” them. There is no room for anyone else’s way of doing things, opinions, likes or dislikes. Their “rules,” which can change with the wind, must be adhered to at all costs, regardless of the facts of the situation. They will not listen to another side and they do not tolerate being questioned. The least bit of disagreement over ANYTHING AT ALL brings about an instant rejection or attack since they can’t see that people can have different ideas and approaches, and that working TOGETHER is the most positive and productive way to be.
No, everything has to be THEIR WAY or NO WAY AT ALL.
I feel sorry for them, but not sorry enough to let them invade my world. That will never happen again. I will not breathe the poisonous air around them. I will protect and care for my self, as I deserve to live in peace and express myself and my feelings and my experiences. No one, no matter what names they call me, can take that away from me.
These kinds of personalities (dare I even say “people?”) have to be “right” and all the others have to be “wrong.” That’s the way their world operates; it’s the only thing that they can see. It’s positive or negative, black and white world. It must be very difficult for them to maneuver in their world. But it’s their problem, not mine, and I don’t want it to become my problem ever again. They can commiserate with each other and leave the rest of us alone!
They can stick to their way of thinking and I will stick to mine. I don’t invade their space at all. I wish they would not invade mine. I don’t go to their blog; why are they coming to mine? It’s their own words they are seeing; it’s their own behavior being made known. They cannot control this or hide it anymore. They don’t control the whole world, no matter how much they would like to. There’s a word for people like this but it isn’t coming to mind right now. But it isn’t good.
They can’t exert control or influence on my blog any more than I would bother to try to exert control on theirs. They didn’t like what I wrote ONE TIME and I was gone. That was it. OK. Accepted. Now I have my own blog describing my own experiences, and trying to find forgiveness in my heart. Yet these people make it very difficult and keep adding to the pyre every single day. Is this the only thing they know how to do? Do they have no sense of decency what-so-ever? Have they never heard “live and let live?” Apparently not.
I believe that with any relationship, including estranged parents and their adult children. we are obligated to look at our own role in things, intentional or not. We can only offer an olive branch to the opposing side if we want peace, and this was strenuously objected to by some of the admins on the P.E.A.C.E. site. What kind of “peace” are they espousing? How do they ever think there will be a peaceful and productive resolution to conflict within their own family, if they cannot and will not refrain from calling their adult children and ex-husbands horrible names? No wonder they are estranged!
And my saying that I “put my relationship with my son into the Hands of God” and pray for resolution every single day was deemed “trying to turn their site into a religious site” therefore I was banned. And now so-called “Christian” supporters are telling me I am “no Christian” for describing what was done and said on the so-called P.E.A.C.E. site?
What kind of lunacy is going on here? Are there admins lurking on my blog that have multiple personality disorders, so they adopt different characters at will? I have no idea, but I won’t deal with them any more. That’s it. This is THE END. Further harassment by any of them will result in legal action, that is guaranteed.
There is no end to the lengths these kinds of people will go to, just as the ones who focus on celebrities and send them threats as well. It’s the same thing with claustrophobic and controlling governments: it’s “off with their heads” or “send them to Siberia” and the Secret Police who come in the middle of the night, and you are “banned” permanently within an instant and no one knows why. You are just GONE. Yet I am the one being called a “bully?” LOOK IN THE MIRROR. See what you are saying: you are describing yourselves.
Call me all the names you want; it still changes nothing about the facts and the truth. As I said before, I don’t bother them and they should not bother me. As some of these people seem to believe “the world is against them,” they should stick to their own backyard! No need to come to mine.
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This must be what people talk about when they say “forgiveness” is for the forgiver, not for the abuser. For some die-hard cases, forgiveness is as meaningless as tossing a stone into a pitch black hole, sinking to the bottom of God only knows where. Possibly into the fire pit of hell. Some people can’t tell the difference between right and wrong and will always throw back whatever they are doing in your face, blaming you and say it was YOU who were doing it!
Love and forgiveness has no place in the toxic environment these people create. They only dispel the light and love from above. They bring darkness wherever they go. I am not immune to the virus that they carry, so they must be given wide berth with No Contact whatsoever. Only heroes and saints can withstand these kind of people, and I am not there yet. Perhaps one day I will, but not today. And probably not tomorrow.
They know just how to jab and draw blood for yet another wound. So I will take steps to protect myself and expose them for who and what they are. Devils all! They come to destroy, not to build. They come with illness, not to heal. They come with destruction, not construction. They destroy all that they touch and sacrifice no one and nothing, except for their own self-centered ends. I feel sorry for them but I will never forgive them. I’m done with that.
There are a number of psychological diagnoses for this kind of behavior, but I don’t care what it is called. Those people are often called “trolls” and I can now see why. They can’t see the truth and they will never take responsibility for their own actions, so once again, I will give them wide berth while taking steps to expose every single negative message they send my way.
I will have them investigated for their IP addresses and find out where they live and turn their messages over the to police. I will take out an “internet restraining order,” just like some of their estranged adult children have done in taking out restraining orders against them to keep them away. I don’t blame those adult children one bit! Now I know what must have led them to act this way. When someone doesn’t listen but continues to assault and attack, all the while saying it is YOU that is doing it, sometimes you have no choice but to fight back to keep them away. Harassment is against the law and I will not be harassed any longer. Not by any of these people, sick though they may be. I will not be poisoned by their own pen. No more. I will accept no more.
My blog will speak MY truth, about MY experiences. It’s nobodies business but my own. Others can read it and weep, read it and laugh, or read it and simply go away. Write whatever they want on their own blog. If you can’t stand the truth about yourself then find somewhere else to go. Stay away from mine. Take responsibility for your actions. What you see here is a picture of YOU.
One day anonymity on the internet will no longer be tolerated and everyone’s words and deeds will be open for all to see. Then they will no longer be able to skulk in the corners and hide in the shadows and play their devil tricks on an unsuspecting and trusting audience. If you call yourself “Christians,” then God help us all. Pray for yourselves, not for me. I don’t need your kind of “prayers.” How dare you tell me how to worship? How dare you try to judge anyone as if you were God? What is wrong with you to even think such a thing? You show the greatest hypocrisy which is as great a sin as the false witness you bear. Hypocrites, all.
Find someone else to torment with your names and your lies. It will no longer be me as I don’t have to have ANYTHING to do with you; just leave me alone. Stay away from my blog as I stay away from yours. I have nothing to do with you and don’t invade your space. Don’t invade mine.
Keep to your own cruel world. I want no part of it. Exposure is the only thing that will drive the devil out of the light and into the dark where s/he belongs. I have had enough.
Go to heaven or hell; God will send you right where you belong.
It is not up to me, and where you end up will have NOTHING to do with me.
Dear God protect me and defend me from deranged individuals like this. Surely all the wasps in the world and the poisonous spiders, toads and snakes cannot have any effect when God is on your side, even as they pour out of these Medusa’s heads.
In trying to understand these personalities, the Greeks knew them best, and named them the “Gorgon Medusas.”*
Cut one off and another comes to take it’s place. Is there any difference below? LOL!
I ask God to protect me from these devils inside and out. Give me leave to learn how to not be injured by spurious comments. Let their own words bounce back onto them right where they belong, just like the children’s rhyme about how cruel words “bounces off of me and sticks to you.” LOL!
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I must not let these people get to me and let me become “like them.” This is of course what these devils want. Reading further in the Bible quote I posted above, I find this (and I don’t study the bible by any means, as so-called Christians make me sick):
But I tell you that anyone who is angry with his brother will be subject to judgment. Again, anyone who says to his brother, ‘Raca,’ will be subject to the Sanhedrin. But anyone who says, ‘You fool!’ will be subject to the fire of hell.
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Dear God please protect me and defend me; guide me and show me The Way.
Practice Patience and Prayer in all things.
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- Medusa’s Story:
Medusa was not always a hideous female with living venomous snake hair who turned people to stone at the direct sight of her. In fact, before Medusa was cursed she was a ravishingly beautiful woman with magnificent long hair. She was known to be so beautiful that she was beyond the reach of any male desire. Medusa comes from the Greek word Μέδουσα (Médousa) meaning guardian and protectress. Being a priestess in Athena’s temple, Medusa took a vow of chastity and was originally known as a symbol of purity due to her innocent sexual nature.
Note: While Athena is commonly known as the goddess of warfare she is also the the virgin goddess of wisdom, courage, inspiration, civilization, law and justice, mathematics, strength, strategy, the arts, crafts, and skill.
To find out more about what happened to her, read here: could this be part of their problem(s)? I don’t know and don’t want to find out, but I am trying to find a glimmer of goodness in all this mud.